The Inner Voice
Timing has always been my main issue, spiritually speaking. I try to live in the present moment, and then some insecurity of mine gets triggered, and I want to know the answer or outcome right now. If I don’t get it, I feel let down. I have even read many books by having to go to the last page and know the outcome and then once I digested it, I can go backwards and read the details. Then there is the past that can go around and around in our heads with nothing new to be gained from it. It’s just there tied in with an emotion. It could be anger, resentment, guilt, sadness, etc. These emotions from the past and future can be really strong.
With trust and faith in the divine can come a relaxation of having to know the outcome now. If you can believe that you can be like a plane flying in the fog with radar from the main base, connected to a spiritual base, then it becomes easier to live while the unknown creates itself. If you believe that you can always be in tune with the big picture of God/Universe, then you can even say that I am one with the Divine order of things. My timing and the Universe’s timing are one and the same, and I will follow my instincts in knowing when to act or when to be patient. I can then let go of having to know the outcome because I’m okay being in the creative present. When ready, we can just accept the past and move on. With the learned lesson, there is no more point to return to the past. We can just shut the door on it instead of dwelling on the “spilled milk” or “what I used to have” and move into the present moment. When we live in the present moment, there is a feeling of peace and vibrancy that is a feeling of connection that is not controlled by our intellect.
I hope to include a poem in the next column about timing from one of the Wave’s readers who sent me a book of her poems. If anyone else has any experiences with dealing with how to live in the present moment, please feel free to write to me at the Wave and share your wisdom.